sisi

finally decided where to go, but suddenly lost the direction for the next step

nothing to do, and no one standing by my side

they gone away, leaving me alone in this empty city

i just hate this city, hate the life, hate myself

the fear of the future, i can't never think about that any more

am i really a lucky one?

放假将近一个月，旅行了一个月

先是亲爱的回来陪我过生日，然后妈妈过来欧洲游

这一定会成为我这辈子拍照片拍得最多的一个月。。。

爬了夏天的艾尔贝斯雪山，去了梦寐以求的巴塞罗那海岸，看了传说中的意大利帅哥

在罗马的许愿池前准备许愿的时候，突然发现自己已经很满足了

大学毕业了，报了的3个MASTER都录取了我

虽然还没有决定到底去哪个，但是觉得自己已经很幸运，不应该也不敢再奢求什么了

进入阶段性满足阶段。。。

 

After several months' hard work, i got the first good news for myself

"favorable" for "management operationnel"

even though "management operationnel" is not my first choice,

i'm released when seeing this "favorable", as at least

i see a ray of hope after the 2 dark months

the admission is not only a kind of approval,

but also great encouragement for me

still waiting for the results of my first choice"finance & controle"

and my extra-first choise"..."

still working for those endless projets

and the coming exams

i can, continue to sleep at 4 in the morning

but i can't resign all my hope

what i need is just to find sth to uphold myself

 

 

 

Coco Avant Chanel recently opened in cinemas, much to the delight of fashion fans. However, it seems not everyone in Paris is happy to see Audrey Tautou in the designer's shoes. The city's transport authority has banned the film's promo poster from being displayed on buses because it depicts Audrey smoking a cigarette. Ironically, France's health minister thinks it's ridiculous.

Born in 1883, Gabrielle "Coco" Chanel is credited with making suits on women popular with her design, and turning the 'little black dress' into a cultural phenomenon. After having an affair with a German spy during World War Two, her popularity waned among her fellow Parisians, but soared around the rest of France and the world. Especially well-known is her perfume Chanel No. 5, which continues to be hugely popular today, and smells rather good considering Chanel's claim: "This perfume is not just beautiful and fragrant. It contains my blood and sweat and a million broken dreams."

The film begins with Chanel's arrival at the orphanage where she grew up and learned to sew, follows her arrival in society and romance with Boy Capel, and ends with her debut runway show; showing where the Chanel LBD was born — Coco realizes she has nothing to wear out and orders a plain black dress, without a corset, from a horrified local dressmaker (pastel corseted dresses were the order of the day) — their favorite. 
Anyway, that's the film in which Audrey Tautou tells the story of Coco Chanel - a designer who changed the way women dressed forever,and her own life as well. 

for a long time, i have been quite sure that i know about myself, about what i need, what i want, and i what i'am able to get.

but suddenly,when looking around,i find that those things i've been trying hard for years to get, just turn out to be so disappointing.

i can't help thinking that maybe i have been always wrong, i never knew myself,

i just know what i don't like, what i don't want, and what i should refuse.

circumstances alter cases, evreything can be changed for every possible reason,

but sometimes i neglect to investigate or even consider the possible transformations.

what i have been expecting is just an imagination, or i'm just not lucky enough or excellent enough to hold it

i hate myself when i can't find out a way to satisfy myself, and no matter how hard i tried to find, i just hate myself

perhaps everything was wrong from the first choice i have made, but i can't abandon any of them to restart, the whole life

so scared, i can't loose anything that i've gained by myself, from nothing

so triste, i can't release myself from worry

or maybe i was just born unhappy